I couldn’t think of a better subject for this. Just thought I’d update with random stuff.

I changed my mind and renewed orangebin. Its just hard to let go of the name, I’ve had this for almost 4 years (I think) and still haven’t grew tired of it. I still bought a new domain name though and will share the URL once I’m done setting it up.

I’ve been eating a lot lately and I blame PMS. *LOL* Anything for an excuse for pigging out. But tomorrow I told my dad that I’ll come with him on his morning walk. I need to have time for physical activities no matter what. That would be my goal for the coming weeks and maybe months.

Tomorrow, I’d also go to My Health Center for my Urinalysis. It’s way overdue and the office nurse did a follow up on me already. I was supposed to go today but was too lazy, once I saw the Sucat exit I decided to do it tomorrow. The office doctor told me that the salt level in my body (urine) was too high and also there’s something (can’t remember the term) that’s too high as well and it might be a cause of bacterial infection so she prescribed some expensive antibiotics that I had to take for 2 weeks. And after the 2 weeks, I’m supposed to get my repeat urinalysis but wasn’t able to because I had my period. It’s been 2 weeks after my period and I still haven’t gone for the urinalysis. Haha! I must do it tomorrow, hopefully I’d be in a better mood

Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
- Vanilla Twilight Owl City

I heard that song awhile ago while I was driving on my way home and those lines struck me. So as soon as I got to my room, I opened my laptop and searched for the lyrics. Its such a nice song I love the lyrics and the melody. For those in a LDR like Gel, surely could relate to the lyrics/song.

Allow me to share the lyrics to this new favorite of mine:

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

‘Cause I’ll doze off safe and soundly
But I’ll miss your arms around me
I’d send a postcard to you, dear
‘Cause I wish you were here

I’ll watch the night turn light-blue
But it’s not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn’t so bad
‘Til I look at my hands and feel sad
‘Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I’ll find repose in new ways
Though I haven’t slept in two days
‘Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I’ll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don’t feel so alone

I don’t feel so alone, I don’t feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I’ll think of you tonight
I’ll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I’ll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I’ll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won’t forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I’d whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

I’m contemplating on whether to purchase their album or not. Just like the thousands of people in the US, contemplating on what insurance to get from a vast number of insurance sales leads. I’m also moving to a new (online) home soon. I’ve decided on a name and hopefully before the month ends I’m all settled in my new home.

I’ve been meaning to change this layout of mine but I’m having a hard time on searching for a theme that I’d like to customize. Speaking of my site, it’s about to expire by March and I’m thinking if I should renew it or register for a new domain name. I’ve had my domain name for a long time now and I feel like having a change of name. I need to brainstorm ideas before the 2nd week of March. Good luck to me
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I don’t know what’s wrong with me but since the year started I’ve been getting sick every month. I’ve had colds and cough last month and now I feel sick again. The same symptoms I had last month, but this time I drank medicines right away and slept early last night to have a full 8 hour sleep.
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It’s my boyfriend’s birthday today. I thought I’d beat him to work today but I failed to. I was hoping to surprise him by placing his cake and gift on his desk but his shift is way too early (his shift starts at 7AM). I came in at 6:50AM and he was already busy with work. Oh well, I’ll try to surprise him next time (maybe on our anniversary) I just hope his shift doesn’t start that early by then.

If you’re from the Philippines or a Filipino who’s been listening to Magic 89.9 every morning for four years you probably know what I’m talking about. I listen to this radio show every morning (Friday not included) on my way to work. It’s actually the reason why I don’t feel so stressed or irritated despite the traffic every morning. I enjoy my travel to the office because of this show. Sometimes even as I have parked my car already, I still stay for a little longer until the commercial break. It’s really an entertaining show. And if you still didn’t know, Mo Twister has his own blog as well. Not only is it entertaining, but he also gives away prizes thru his Triva Questions. All you have to do is follow him on Twitter and post your answers there (Twitter). I hope I get to win on one of his trivia questions until he runs out of prizes to give away.

LSS – Last Song Syndrome
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My parents and I went to Marikina yesterday to have our Valentine’s dinner. I loved the band who was playing at the restaurant. My current LSS is one of the songs they played last night.

Vertical Horizon’s Best I Ever Had
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I’m here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing’s quite the same now
I just say your name now

But it’s not so bad
You’re only the best I ever had
You don’t want me back
You’re just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I’m just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

But it’s not so bad
You’re only the best I ever had
You don’t need me back
You’re just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can’t take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You’re always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I’m here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I’m haunted

But it’s not so bad
You’re only the best I ever had
I don’t want you back
You’re just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

Sometimes I think about what it would be like to just up and leave, just find whatever I can along the way, with no care for the future.

My officemate plurked that a week ago, and I share the same sentiments. Like I said in my previous post, I am the kind of person who thinks about the future. I try as much as possible to prepare for what might happen in the future. When I am faced with an opportunity, I always weigh things and see if I’d have a future with that opportunity. I don’t want to experience a dead end, I don’t want to turn back, I always want to go forward.

But then again, not thinking of the future seems easy. Its as if you are just living in the moment, carefree. But I’m just not like that, I’m afraid to even attempt to be carefree and spontaneous. If only I could be one, but I can’t and I don’t think I’d ever be.

One afternoon a couple of my officemates and I had our PM snacks at the nearby McDonald’s. I love having discussions about the future with my officemates. I actually love just hearing their thoughts about the future, where they’d want to be a year or 5 years from now etc. Our conversation came to the point about our “future” partners. We all agreed that what we want for our partner is someone who is responsible about the future and not someone who just goes with the flow or a happy go lucky guy. We want someone who would always think about the future. We want someone who would prepare for the future.

I’d like to think that I am someone who is concerned about the future. I was probably influenced by my mother. She for sure always thinks about the future, she always prepares for the future. So I opened up a time deposit account and also purchased a life insurance last year, I’m actually contemplating if I should also get a health insurance. Since I’m interested to get a health insurance, I did some research and found a site about health insurance leads. This site is both helpful for consumers like me as well as to insurance agents. It serves as a mediator between the two (consumer and agents) since this site will be able to give out “leads” to insurance agents on consumers that is interested to get an insurance. The site is not limited to health insurance alone, but they also cater to life insurance as well.

I might get a health insurance someday, probably when my salary increases or doubles. But for now I’ll just settle with my time deposit, savings account and life insurance.

I failed to keep my promise to blog at least twice a week. I just don’t have anything worthwhile to blog about. Although, a lot has happened to me while I was MIA in blogging. Let me just share some highlights:

• I finally have a new laptop! I bought a Compaq CQ40-416AU last Saturday. I hope it turns out to be a worthwhile investment.
• Over the week, I got to think about my future. I actually had decided during the holidays that I should move on and find another company because I’ve been on bench for a very looong time, so I started applying online. An opportunity outside came up but at the same time I got accepted to work on a project starting February within my current company. I decided to stay because I wasn’t too sure that accepting the opportunity would help me in my career. Its something new and entirely different to what I am doing, although it still has a bit of Java. I really would want to focus on acquiring more skills and experience with Java development and build my career from there.
• My “game” plan for now is to get as much exposure and experience with the project that I’d be involved in and by the time I go back to being bench I’d start to apply and look for other opportunities outside. But then again, something might come up along the way that will make me to stay a little longer. We’ll see

I’m beginning to blog in bullets… that’s all for now.

I still haven’t moved servers. But I did upgrade to WP 2.8.6. I thought I would be able to move servers last Friday night but I forgot that I had to do my homework for my German language class on Saturday. I scheduled the move to be done on Saturday evening but then again it didn’t push through because I was too sleepy. And so I said I’ll do it today, but the family went to Church in the morning and had lunch after then decided to watch 2012 after having our lunch.

The movie was long, it was more than 2 hours, I think. Word of advice: If you decide to watch the movie, make sure to pee before because its quite long and you might end up just like me. I had to wait for the movie to end before I was able to pee because the cinema was packed and I didn’t want to miss any part of the movie. It felt good though once I was able to pee. *LOL* I liked the movie, the family liked it. I cried in a couple of scenes… the movie was a suspense/comedy/family/drama/action movie.

I hope to squeeze in the transfer tonight

I never thought I’d say this but… I miss being busy. I miss not realizing that it’s lunch time or that the day is already over because of how busy I am. You try to finish all your tasks for the day but still think a day is not enough to finish all of them. You get so irritated when another task comes along which needs to be prioritized like submitting your timesheet or else you’d get bombarded with email and IM reminders. Then before the day ends you still need to submit a status report which would mean you need to alot time to document the status of what you are doing. Oh, how hectic one can be. But now? All of that has changed. I sit here waiting… 11:30AM and I start to get “Lunchtime!” IMs, then the clock strikes 4:45PM, I start fixing my things, go to the CR and prepare for an hour or so journey way back home. 5:00PM comes and I’m out of here! That’s my typical day at the office. I feel so useless, I’m seriously thinking of searching for other options come December. If I can’t find any opportunities here, then I think I have given enough time already. I’ve stayed long enough and I’ve been patient enough. It’s time to move on. Unless something concrete comes along the way, then I’m staying. I’m actually shortlisted for a project, but the project is still on its bidding stage. So as of the moment, I’m still waiting whether our company won the bid or not. I really hope we get to know whether we won or not soon, like before December starts. But until I feel safe and useful here, I’m keeping my doors open for other opportunities.